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'He stole my youth': Actress, 29, who had an affair with photographer Jonathan Leder accuses him of abusing her when she was just 17, days after Emily Ratajkowski's claim that he sexually assaulted her on a shoot

 An actress who had an affair with photographer Jonathan Leder has alleged that he had also abused her — just days after Emily Ratajkowski published an essay accusing him of sexually assaulting her during a nude shoot at his home in 2012. 

Nola Palmer, 29, revealed in a candid Instagram post on Monday that she was the 'crazy' actress who was featured in the naked Polaroid pictures that Leder had allegedly shown Ratajkowski that night. The model claimed that after the shoot, Leder suddenly put his fingers inside her, and she had to remove them 'with force.' 

Palmer praised Ratajkowski, 29, for her 'bravery,' saying it had given her the strength to finally come forward with her own story about the photographer after he 'stole [her] youth' when she was just 17 years old. 

Going public: Actress Nola Palmer has accused photographer Jonathan Leder of abusing her following Emily Ratajkowski's sexually assault allegations against him

Going public: Actress Nola Palmer has accused photographer Jonathan Leder of abusing her following Emily Ratajkowski's sexually assault allegations against him 

Claims: In her candid Instagram post, she said the Leder (pictured) 'broke [her] down and built [her] back up into his own image' when she was 17

Claims: In her candid Instagram post, she said the Leder (pictured) 'broke [her] down and built [her] back up into his own image' when she was 17

'Since Emily’s article has dropped I have been a wreck,' Palmer wrote. 'Reading her words and the ways in which she described Jonathan instantly brought me to tears. I was in a state of panic before I could even finish the article. 

'I have written and rewritten a statement over and over again these past five days. Then slept for 24 hours due to the fear of crossing someone who basically stole my youth. 

'I have been carrying around the pain and trauma of Jonathan and his abuse for a decade now. I have gone so far as changing my name because in my mind he owned it and I could not look at that name without seeing him.'

Palmer said what Ratajkowski had written about Leder in her essay was eerily similar to her own experience with the photographer.  

'Everything in Emily’s article felt so familiar, it felt as if he was there standing behind me as I read it with his body pressing into my back, daring me to challenge him,' she explained. 'I have spent ten plus years emotionally tied to my abuser, unable to let him fully go because at seventeen he broke me down and built me back up into his own image, an image I have been at war with ever since. 

'But for the first time I am able to publicly say, Jonathan Leder was my abuser and that is thanks to Emily Ratajkowski and her bravery,' she continued. 'Emily, I am so sorry that this man hurt you. I wish I had the strength then to warn you. But you speaking out has already helped me in my own healing and for that I will be forever grateful.' 

'I am so unbelievably struck by your courage and your incredible ability to recount a truly harrowing moment in your life in such a thoughtful and insightful way. It is your strength that has inspired me to share with everyone that I am the “Crazy Actress” Jonathan Leder spoke about that night.' 

Palmer went on to say that even though she and Ratajkowski are friends, they had never shared their alleged experiences with Leder with each other. 


Bomb: In an essay for The Cut, Ratajkowski (pictured) accused Leder of digitally penetrating her during a nude shoot at his home in 2012, saying she had to remove his fingers 'with force'

Bomb: In an essay for The Cut, Ratajkowski (pictured) accused Leder of digitally penetrating her during a nude shoot at his home in 2012, saying she had to remove his fingers 'with force'

Grateful: Palmer praised Ratajkowski, 29, for her 'bravery,' saying it had given her the strength to finally come forward with her own story about the photographer

Grateful: Palmer praised Ratajkowski, 29, for her 'bravery,' saying it had given her the strength to finally come forward with her own story about the photographer

Ringing true: Palmer said what Ratajkowski had written about Leder in her essay was eerily similar to her own experience with the photographer

Ringing true: Palmer said what Ratajkowski had written about Leder in her essay was eerily similar to her own experience with the photographer

'I am sad that during my friendship with Emily we were too afraid to share our abuse and it is just another demonstration of the long-lasting hold someone can have on you when they’re in a position of power,' she wrote. 

'However, I am so grateful that we are moving into a space where men are being held accountable for their predatory and damaging behavior,' she added. 'It’s women like you Em that give us all strength to tell our own stories. 

'The last five days have brought up old wounds and a lot of pain which will hopefully lead to an enormous amount of healing. Thank you Emily.' 

Ratajkowski was one of the hundreds of people who liked Palmer's post on Monday.  

DailyMail.com has reached out to Leder for comment.  

Palmer's accusations against Leder come less than a week after The Cut published Ratajkowski's powerful essay about what it means to own her image as a model.    

In the piece, she recalled traveling to Leder's home to pose for an unpaid editorial shoot that was arranged by her agent when she was just 20 years old.

Ratajkowski detailed how she sat at Leder's kitchen table before the shoot, saying he showed her naked Polaroids he had taken of his former paramour, but she never named Palmer. 

Trauma: 'I have been carrying around the pain and trauma of Jonathan and his abuse for a decade now,' Palmer wrote, saying she changed her name because in her mind 'he owned it'

Trauma: 'I have been carrying around the pain and trauma of Jonathan and his abuse for a decade now,' Palmer wrote, saying she changed her name because in her mind 'he owned it'

Looking to the future: Palmer said she hopes sharing her story will help her heal after 'ten plus years emotionally tied to [her] abuser'

Looking to the future: Palmer said she hopes sharing her story will help her heal after 'ten plus years emotionally tied to [her] abuser'

'He talked about his “crazy” ex-wife and his affair with a “crazy” actress, now 21 (a year older than me, I noted). He told me about his marriage’s undoing; that the actress, whom Jonathan had cast for a short film he’d been making at the time, came to live with them,' she wrote. 

'He showed me naked pictures, Polaroids, he’d taken during their affair. She seemed so vulnerable in Jonathan’s photos, even though I could tell she was trying to look strong and grown up from the way she held her face square to the camera, chin up, her hair falling perfectly over one eye.

'"No one has shot her better," he said over his shoulder, as I continued to riffle through the Polaroids.' 

Ratajkowski admitted that looking at the images made her feel competitive. She wanted to prove to Leder that she was 'the sexiest and smartest of them all.'   

She said she drank copious amounts of red wine during the shoot, and she noted that she was 'very, very drunk' by the end of the night, despite only being 20 at the time.

'I was cold, shivering, and huddled under a blanket,' she wrote. 'Jonathan and I were on his couch, and the rough texture of his jeans rubbed against my bare legs.'

Ratajkowski described how Leder began asking her about her 'boyfriends,' and she said she 'remembers talking a lot' about her dating history and the men she loved, while 'absentmindedly rubbing [her] feet against one another and against his for warmth.'  

Regrets: Palmer apologized to Ratajkowski for not having the strength back then to warn her about Leder

Regrets: Palmer apologized to Ratajkowski for not having the strength back then to warn her about Leder 

Scared: Palmer went on to say that even though she and Ratajkowski are friends, they had never shared their alleged experiences with Leder with each other

Scared: Palmer went on to say that even though she and Ratajkowski are friends, they had never shared their alleged experiences with Leder with each other

'He told me he liked "that foot thing you’re doing," and I remember this moment more clearly than anything else,' she said. 'I hate that Jonathan commented on something I’ve done throughout my life to comfort myself. I hate that sometimes, even now, when I rub my feet together because I’m cold or afraid or exhausted, I think of Jonathan.

'Most of what came next was a blur except for the feeling,' Ratajkowski continued. 'I don’t remember kissing, but I do remember his fingers suddenly being inside of me. Harder and harder and pushing and pushing like no one had touched me before or has touched me since.

'I could feel the shape of myself and my ridges, and it really, really hurt. I brought my hand instinctively to his wrist and pulled his fingers out of me with force. I didn’t say a word. He stood up abruptly and scurried silently into the darkness up the stairs.'

When contacted by The Cut, Leder denied Ratajkowski's allegations, telling the publication that they were 'too tawdry and childish to respond to.'

Referring to nude and topless shoots that Ratajkowski has done in the years since he worked with her, Leder continued: 'You do know who we are talking about right? This is the girl that was naked in Treats! magazine, and bounced around naked in the Robin Thicke video at that time.

'You really want someone to believe she was a victim?'

In a statement made to DailyMail.com, Leder also denied Ratajkowski's claims about the shoot, saying: 'Ms. Ratajkowski’s allegations are totally false. I feel bad for her that she is at the point in her career where she has to resort to tactics like this to gain press and publicity. It is shameful.

'I think it is also shameful for [New York Magazine] to publish such sordid and tawdry and unsubstantiated allegations against anyone.'

Coming clean: Palmer shared a photo of Ratajkowski's essay for The Cut, revealing she was the 'crazy actress' referenced in the piece

Coming clean: Palmer shared a photo of Ratajkowski's essay for The Cut, revealing she was the 'crazy actress' referenced in the piece 

Looking back: Ratajkowski wrote that Leder spoke about a 'crazy' actress he had an affair with while showing her naked Polaroids of his former paramour, but she never named Palmer

Looking back: Ratajkowski wrote that Leder spoke about a 'crazy' actress he had an affair with while showing her naked Polaroids of his former paramour, but she never named Palmer 

After the incident on the couch, Ratajkowski said she went to bed in the room where they had started the shoot, recalling that she was 'confused as to why Jonathan had left without a word and terrified that he would come back.'

'Later in the morning, I woke with a vicious hangover,' she said. 'I dressed quickly in the clothes I’d been wearing the day before and noticed that my hands were shaking.'

Upon checking her Instagram, she noticed that Jonathan had already put up one of her Polaroids from the previous night.

Ratajkowski also detailed several instances during the shoot that Leder allegedly made comments about her body. She said he branded her first set of Polaroids 'boring and stiff,' and then asked the makeup artist to 'f**k up her hair' before she posed nude.

Despite the fact that she had only been working professionally for a few years, she said she had no fears about posing nude, noting that she had been 'told by plenty of photographers and agents that her body was one of the things that made her stand out.'

'My body felt like a superpower,' she wrote. 'I was confident naked — unafraid and proud.'

However, she admitted that 'a part of her disassociated' when she undressed, and she said that she'd 'had so much wine that giant black spots were expanding and floating in front of her eyes' when she began to pose for Leder on the bed.

When the pair reviewed that second batch of Polaroids together, Ratajkowski said the photographer told her he thought she would be 'a big girl... big-boned, fat,' based on images of her that he had found on Google, in which she appeared curvier.

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